High-Maintenance

I have tried my whole life to be easy to get along with.

I want to be the Toyota Camry of people, you know? Functional, dependable, just needing the occasional oil change and to have someone spray the salt off my undercarriage every spring.

Okay, maybe I took that metaphor too far.

You still get the idea.

I don’t like feeling needy. Some of that is insecurity – feeling like I don’t want to ask people for too much. Which is obviously a thing I need to work on. (Yay, another one!)

But some of it is just me. I like to keep it simple, as you may recall from previous posts. Any process or habit I create is going to be as streamlined as possible. That’s how my brain likes it. I’m a black coffee, jeans and a t-shirt, don’t make me jump through your hoops kind of girl.

However, as I get older, I find that there are some things I really need to be high-maintenance about.

For instance, I have some back pain issues, and sitting at a desk is pretty much the worst thing for my pain levels. At my new job, we are doing all our meetings virtually right now, so I sit at my desk all day and call into every meeting (as is probably the case for a lot of you, as well.) It’s literally painful.

So I did it, guys. I asked for a standing desk. I stood up for myself (get it?!) and asked for something high-maintenance.

My bosses are great so they said yes and ordered one.

And yesterday it arrived. And I immediately felt self-conscious. I felt like the diva extraordinaire, like those hipsters who carry around a record player in their backpack because they can only listen to vinyl.

And I know it’s absurd, because it’s not like I asked for a full-time masseuse and a weekly spa day. I asked for one thing.

But I still feel like a Lexus when I just wanted to be a Toyota.

So, tell me. Are there any things that you need to be high-maintenance about that you feel silly asking for? And if not, tell me your magic.